Class

I am mildly freaking out, and more than a little disturbed right now.

So it occurred to me that a short way to say “the way students are organized into different courses and classes according to their abilities” is “a class system”.

Yeah, as in like, social status?

It disturbs me to no end that we, as students, are being essentially segregated into groups of “inferior” and “superior” according to the courses that we are taking–our class.

So, upon looking up the etymology of the word “class”, it come from the Latin “classis”, which essentially means a division, or group, or something akin to that. It was originally used in the context of separating people into different groups so that they could be taxed accordingly. In the 1600′s, it began to be used to describe educational courses. At this time, education was reserved people high on the socio-economic ladder.

I’m sorry for flipping out, I just find it incredibly frightening how intrinsically the English language links socio-economic status and educational courses.

The really awful thing is, I’ve experienced the results of this. I’ve been in tracked, advanced classes since fourth grade. We were told that we were smarter, brighter, better than people that weren’t. The people in these classes were hated by the kids in normal classes, because we stayed in our own self-important, superior bubbles. We had been told we were better, we thought we were better, we avoided interacting with those that we had been told were inferior. When you got put in the advanced program at my elementary school, you would eventually drift away from your non-advanced friends and join the advanced bubble. It was inevitable.

I am good friends with some of the people who were in the non-advanced classes now, and they are still bitter. They hated us, so much. We thought that we were at the top of the world, and nothing could stop us. We were essentially segregated by those that decided that some of us were smarter than the others.

I didn’t have any close friends who weren’t in advanced classes until probably eighth grade. This was partially simply as a result of never interacting with people who weren’t taking these courses, because we all existed in our own advanced bubbles of social circles. Even as the schedules were split into multiple classes per day, instead of only one teacher all year, it remained the same. You knew the people best who were in the same classes as you, so the social circles became divided by “intelligence”.

This continues to be true with the people I interact with today. It is nowhere near as extreme now (I am the one with the most insanely hard schedule out of my closer friends by a class or two), but it is definitely still there (all of them are taking at least one higher-level course, and all of them can have an extremely intelligent argument discussion on the pros and cons of classic literature).

So, in considering that most people probably have friends whom they consider of similar intelligence to themselves, do they do this because they want to have scholarly conversation, or because it is an idea intrinsic in our language?

I think I’ve made the point I wanted to make here (although I can’t remember exactly what it was initially anymore), but this is just sort of my freaked out rambles for today.

Good night, Internet. Hope that someday I will actually re-read this rant and pick out the typos.

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Happy 2012

I guess I should probably post something about my resolutions or whatnot for the new year. That’s how these things work, right?

A quick summary of 2011:

At the beginning of the year, I got into anime a bit, and then Durarara in like February, which faded around…late May? And then in the end of July/beginning of August I read Homestuck. I’m writing for our school’s literary paper, and taking art classes. I’ve started to seriously draw outside of class, though, with Homestuck. I guess that’s pretty big. I learned about our school’s theater program and got somewhat involved in that, and mostly I was a huge nerd. It was a good year, I guess. Pretty stressful at the end, though.

What I would like for 2012:

Mostly, I would like to be extremely productive. I would like to not procrastinate and read and write and draw a lot, and get good grades, and be overall successful. I would like to be happy and nerdy and paint sets and get into the school I want to get into. I want to learn things and keep them in my brain so that I can be more intelligent, or at least seem more intelligent.

What I expect for 2012:

I will probably be really unhappy all year. I sort of don’t think that I will get into this school (especially considering I haven’t really started the written part of the application yet, and it is due in a week, and I don’t fit the age requirement), which I have been wanting to get into for three or four years. I will definitely improve in my writing and my art, but there is no way that I will reach the point that I would like to. I will probably acquire more knowledge, but not the knowledge I should have for classes and whatnot, and not enough to have an intelligent conversation on the subject. I will still be nerdy, though. If I weren’t nerdy, I would be nothing.

Thus, my semi-realistic, but still probably unattainable goals for this year:

I would like to get to a point where I am actually comfortable and willing to show my art to other people. Right now, I really don’t like anyone other than myself seeing my drawings. I would like to start writing more, just more quantity (quality will come with practice, but right now I am only writing when required to by the magazine that I am writing for, and I would like to change this). I would like to start taking fencing classes. I would like to start procrastinating less, and maybe figure out and use the most-time efficient and effective ways for me to study, as I don’t actually have much homework that is busywork and writing and worksheets and whatnot (most of it is reading).

Briefly, some plans for achievement of these goals:

I was thinking that I would draw and/or write something (even something really small) daily. Eventually, these things may or may not end up on this site. Who knows? As for fencing, I just need to a annoy my mother until she remembers to sign me up. And for schoolwork, well I don’t really know. I’ve been trying to become less procrastinate-y for years (I am actually procrastinating by writing this post, see how great I am?), and have obviously not succeeded. Maybe I can set up an incentive system for myself. Or something. I don’t know.

Sometimes, I can’t figure out if I am extremely cynical/realistic, or extremely optimistic.

I think I need to stop writing this post now.

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Did you know that you can read old anatomy books on the Internet? For free??

Seriously, if you did, why did you not tell me? I am currently flipping out with the awesome that is this. This ability to read old anatomy books without spending any money or searching through used bookstores for hours (admittedly I will probably still do that, but free! online!).

I don’t think I’ve mentioned, but I really really really love old scientific books, the ones with the etchings and diagrams and the ridiculously long-winded writing and the font that has way too many serifs. I think this is best from the time period around the late 1800′s and early 1900′s and I would like to apologize if my grammar makes no sense because I am literally squeeing from excitement right now this is so brilliant.

So far I have found:

And now I shall go spend the last day of 2011 reading hundred-year-old anatomy books. This is quite possibly the best use of my time ever in existence.

Happy New Year, world.

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Things that I have pinned as app tabs in Firefox

Essentially, these are pages that I want to keep open all the time. Most likely I just refer back to them extremely frequently, or I need to remember to check/edit them, and will forget if I close them.

In this order:

The AO3 page for the Hemostuck series.

The AO3 page for Scarlet and Bible Black.

The AO3 page for Topsy Turvy.

My Tumblr dashboard, which is not really linkable.

MSPA, obviously.

Gmail, which is also not linkable.

A website that outlines the meaning and symbolism of each card in a traditional tarot deck.

The online portion of the UWC application, which I can’t link to either.

The page for the 2012 calendar on What Pumpkin, which is refreshed frequently so that I can order it as soon as it comes back in stock.

I suppose I should just ramble for a bit down here, because I haven’t posted in what, months? Have I mentioned Homestuck yet? That is my current obsession. Homestuck is a rather unconventional webcomic. It is by no means good literature, and most of the art is awful. It takes weeks to read and doesn’t make very much sense. However, Homestuck has incredible characterization and, if you can figure it out, the plot is gorgeously complex. Andrew Hussie is incredible at creating a bunch of extremely interesting, complex, and unique characters, throwing them into ridiculous situations, making them interact, making the reader care intensely about them, and then either making them godsĀ  or killing them off. Homestuck is just very good at making you care about these people that don’t exist, these thirteen-year-olds that are off having insane, surreal adventures. Also, for some reason, Homestuck lends itself very well to really quality fanfiction and fanart. I have my three favorite fanfics pinned and linked to above, with Hemostuck being by far my favorite. I could rant about Hemostuck for pages, so I will hold off on that for a bit. As for fanart, there are just so many fanartists that are so incredibly brilliant that I don’t know what to do with myself. I think maybe this is because the best fanartists actually get to participate in Homestuck, by contributing to the calendar or the flashes or album covers. A lot of people on the internet complain a great deal about the Homestuck fandom, because they are sort of insane about shipping and can apparently be extremely rude and inappropriate. However, despite hearing about this second- or third-hand quite frequently, I have never actually encountered fans being like this. Maybe I just follow the right people, I don’t know. My point is, Homestuck is awesome.

The end.

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Pottermore

There’s still Anri’s five-point stats to translate, but I’m too lazy to do that, so I shall tell you my experience with JKR’s crazy announcement that everyone was counting down to. And when I say everyone, I mean my nerdy friends and me. So, here is what happened:

3:30 AM~ I woke up to the sound of my phone alarm, which was frighteningly loud, but I remained in bed.

3:33~ I checked the time. I was planning on staying in bed until 3:45.

3:36~ Checked the time again.

3:40~ And again.

4:03~ I must have fallen asleep a little, because the next time I checked the time, it was way after I was supposed to be up. So I lept out of bed and opened up Pottermore.

4:04~ Clicked on the “Submit your email” button and waited. My friend (who had stayed up all night instead of waking up early) chatted me on Gmail. The button continued to spin.

4:08~ It spun until, instead of showing the registration form thing, the button re-appeared. Well shoot.

4:17~ The process was repeated until I actually got to the registration form. Unfortunately, upon clicking “submit”, there was an error message. I returned to the spinny thing again. (The whole error message thing happened probably fifteen times before I finally succeeded.)

4:21~I got impatient and did this:

I had two windows spinning. Oh, by the way, I’m using Firefox, and the Personas theme is I think called Yozakura Quartet. It is based on the not particularly popular anime and better manga with the same name. Hime’s scarf is epic. Also, I took the picture much later. As you can see.

4:27~ My friend went offline.

4:34~ I closed Gmail and Word and whatever other stuff I had open and was bored.

4:36~ I checked Twitter. Pottermore had tweeted something about the site not working for lots of people, and to be patient. I tweeted something.

4:38~ I was bored, and so I opened up Hulu, closed a Pottermore window, and did this:

Yes, that’s right. I rewatched an old episode of Blue Exorcist. Which is pretty good, by the way. Cliche, but good.

4:49~ SUCCESS! I finally got my email submitted to Pottermore. I then finished the episode, tweeted, and opened up Gmail again and updated my status. I also checked Mugglenet.

5:23~ SLEEP AGAIN. Hurrah!

So yeah. That’s all for today, I suppose. I have to go make cookies now and decorate them as obscure characters and then make people guess who they are supposed to be. FUN

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